Circle October 31, 2007

This is the photo I like the most during my visit to Taman Buaya Sandakan. I think it give the subjective meaning of it.

Are they harming the croc?

Or they just were playing with the croc?

The fact is they’re trying to push this big crocodile to the side, to give way for another crocodile for the next show. They’re fat, big and long, and most of the time they just close their eyes. Perhaps they’re too bored to be there, being a show-croc every single day, entertaining the visitors.

Everyone would clap and give compliment to the professionals that doing their stunts with the crocodiles; from kissing the croc lip (I wonder how it taste like) to dancing with the croc. I gave credit to them for doing such things, first for their braveness to put their balls on chopping board, and second, for showing the visitors wildlife are not harmful given they’re treated in a proper and safe way.

But are they happy with their situation?

One for living in cage for years.

One for risking their body parts for the sake of entertainment.

This world never leaves everyone on top.

What I want in marriage October 29, 2007

Note: Recently, I experienced a very good mood of writing. It was like I want to write about everything, and the ideas keep coming. It’s a blessing, just in time when I guess there’s not much I can offer from my blog anymore – after being drained by plenty of product reviews and all that. Bear with me please, I’m trying to improve my writing skills to accommodate everyone taste – it should not be heavy, but readable to anyone.

I’ve spent few days in KK, right after spending 6 days of Syawal in Sandakan. Kota Kinabalu never failed me. I have lots of nice friends here, thanks to my extended years during my UiTM year; I managed to make more friends there. As usual, I’ve spent few days with them, exchanging stories of friends. I was not surprised to know that few of our friends already married, some just got engaged, and some still making their way to the next level. Instead, I was surprised of the rumors flying around (for almost 3 years) that I’ve engaged to whoever it was. Thank you guys, at least I’m still in your talk circle.

Personally, I don’t think I will go anywhere near that status. I’m happy with my current status – no further comment required. I guess it’s just the effect of current trend; accumulate wealth while we can, and settle down when it’s all has been lay down on the table. I keep myself contained with the urge of an opportunist. It’s all there, ready to be grabbed, and I’m all with it. Being young, I tried to keep myself occupied with anything that I can learn now. It’s unfair to put myself in the comfort zone all the time, because I’ve learned that all the good things come after a plenty of hard work. What’s learning without implementation? It’s like raising a kid without giving him a direction in life.

Many peoples around me have asked the same thing; marriage. It’s something that I’m still weak at. Marriage is not just being attached to your spouse, have a kid, and raise them together. I’m not a male chauvinist pig. I want a marriage to be meaningful, and I have a complete control of it, of course towards a better way. I want to guide the family towards a way, that exceeds more than what I’ve been thinking of. I want everyone in my family to be able to take care of themselves, but still put our mind and soul as a family. I want everyone in the family to be able to pursue their dreams, despite the challenges they have to face, because I want my family to be successful in whatever way they will choose. I want to be able to give my family a better basic need, simply for the healthy environment that I’ve dreamt of, in all aspects. I want everything positive, and yes, I mean it, I want everything!

Since I see myself far from perfect, or anywhere near that, I’ll rest my case till I know I’m ready. So stop asking the same thing. No girls want a guy without bright future.