I’ve spent few days in KK, right after spending 6 days of Syawal in Sandakan. Kota Kinabalu never failed me. I have lots of nice friends here, thanks to my extended years during my UiTM year; I managed to make more friends there. As usual, I’ve spent few days with them, exchanging stories of friends. I was not surprised to know that few of our friends already married, some just got engaged, and some still making their way to the next level. Instead, I was surprised of the rumors flying around (for almost 3 years) that I’ve engaged to whoever it was. Thank you guys, at least I’m still in your talk circle.
Personally, I don’t think I will go anywhere near that status. I’m happy with my current status – no further comment required. I guess it’s just the effect of current trend; accumulate wealth while we can, and settle down when it’s all has been lay down on the table. I keep myself contained with the urge of an opportunist. It’s all there, ready to be grabbed, and I’m all with it. Being young, I tried to keep myself occupied with anything that I can learn now. It’s unfair to put myself in the comfort zone all the time, because I’ve learned that all the good things come after a plenty of hard work. What’s learning without implementation? It’s like raising a kid without giving him a direction in life.
Many peoples around me have asked the same thing; marriage. It’s something that I’m still weak at. Marriage is not just being attached to your spouse, have a kid, and raise them together. I’m not a male chauvinist pig. I want a marriage to be meaningful, and I have a complete control of it, of course towards a better way. I want to guide the family towards a way, that exceeds more than what I’ve been thinking of. I want everyone in my family to be able to take care of themselves, but still put our mind and soul as a family. I want everyone in the family to be able to pursue their dreams, despite the challenges they have to face, because I want my family to be successful in whatever way they will choose. I want to be able to give my family a better basic need, simply for the healthy environment that I’ve dreamt of, in all aspects. I want everything positive, and yes, I mean it, I want everything!
Since I see myself far from perfect, or anywhere near that, I’ll rest my case till I know I’m ready. So stop asking the same thing. No girls want a guy without bright future.