Tired lah! March 10, 2008

Filed under: Personal Opinion — saifulrizan @ 3:07 am

I’m tired of looking for a job. Having a good “resume” of attending dozens of job interviews, writing to over 50 companies asking for job vacancy, spent money on passport size photos, printing and envelope.

Over the years, I’ve been rejected many times – perhaps the company couldn’t see if I can fit into their business line. One Trust Company in Labuan rejected my job application 3 times already – all in just 2 years consecutively. The SPA form was never fruitful, after 4 times already. Man, it’s really hard to get a job!

Not that I’m complaining. It’s really true that every person have to be disappointed at least once in our life. That’s what makes peoples stronger. I’m not saying that after dozens of rejections, I would be strong enough to be on my own. While some people would say it’s all about convincing the potential employer either in your CV or during the job interview.

I’m going to be 25 this year. Some people told me I look like I am 18 years old. That would make me float like bee, but gravity sets in and slaps me with that big header “get a life”. I’m 25 and still don’t have a permanent job.

I just finished one interview at one financial authority institution in Labuan. A couple days before, I went to the second stage of interview with one foreign bank in Labuan. I was on my full mood at that time. The first one went very well, with me being hyper active, though I thought I made the interviewer felt uncomfortable which at some point, he say, ‘You’re dominant. Are you the kind of autocratic or make decision from teamwork?” Of course I confirm the latter one.

I’m still waiting for confirmation, though I’m not hoping so much that I will get the job. Perhaps being used to rejection makes me immunes to rejection. Duh!

When it’s time to be my own boss, I will step up the plate and perform my very best!


Treasure Up the Attic! January 24, 2008

Filed under: Personal Opinion,Photography — saifulrizan @ 3:07 am

Look what I’ve found in the attic!


Those are the toys I collected during my school years. The Hydra Gundam and Gundam X-Divider Mobile Suit : GX-9900-DV were the only Gundam I own. Both are High Grade models; less complicated but need more patient. I managed to put them together sometimes ago, but when I thought to give an airbrush effect would make it look interesting and real, I take it off part by part and I became too lazy to do it.



It’s still in its original paint … and it became dustier after I left it abandoned for 7 years with his beheaded cousin, Hydra Gundam in the box up the attic.



These are the original miniature of some great cars ever built in history (for those who value the engineering and history of these cars) and some are just the miniatures of vehicles that we always see on the road; tanker, tow truck, tractor, etc. My mom bought all these for me, and she got it for 50 cents each. It was a great bargain, from some whom ceased business for good and trying to make money from his stuff.



Esso tanker – oh my, the dust…


Above, Left to Right : FIAT XI/9, GP Beach Buggy, FIAT XI/9

Bottom, Left to Right : WIGWAM Van Camper, Ford Escort, Marcos XP


Marcos XP

I’ll clean up these stuff, and perhaps I can make them good to be a photography subject in my blog. But with the Hydra Gundam anx X Divider, it will take longer that it is.

Wish me luck!







Less Controversial Sunday January 21, 2008

Filed under: Personal Opinion,Photography — saifulrizan @ 3:35 am

Pardon me for the title. It’s just a book title I read just now.

To be honest, I don’t even understand what the book author trying to tell me. Novel picisan maybe. I guess just put it on the floor lah till I want to read it another day – if I want to, I guess.

Nothing much today. It’s Sunday, and everyone just stay at home with family. I really hate it when it is Sunday. Knowing that I have no permanent job now, It sucks to know you will have nothing to do on Monday.

We went to Pohon Batu to have a drink. As usual, this H5 will always slinging on my shoulder. I don’t know. I always bring my camera everywhere. I want to live with it, and I want to liven it. Whatever..



Had an Air Batu Campur (or was it Ais Batu Campur?), or normally called ABC at the food court (err… food court?) at Pohon Batu. I realized there were a lot of peoples there. I thought the only crowded place on Sunday is the Pancur Hitam; about 5 minutes drive from Pohon Batu. Anyway, more chicks at Pancur Hitam than this place, but who cares anyway.



Recently I sent an email to Albert Ng, the Sony Alpha user (with alpha knowledge in camera technical aspect – Salute man!) living in KL. I asked him normal questions people would ask before they convert to digital SLR. What type is better, how much does it cost, bla bla bla, etc. I know it’s such a cliché to ask such question, because nowadays you can acquire the price and specs from just surfing the Net. He captured amazing photos of events he attended, and yes, he went to music events/gigs as well, taking photos and enjoying music at the same time. I hope Labuan will have the same music scene someday.

Anyway, Albert did reply my email, and boy I am so happy with his answers! It’s like he put all his efforts in answering my simple set of questions. He really opened (and changed a bit) my vision and determination to step to the next level in photography.

So, this is Albert and some of his photos taken with the Alpha 700.


Right : Albert, the owner of

So now I know how much I should keep for getting the dSLR. Don’t ask me what brand and model. You’ll see it when you see it. *wink*



Pool by the sea January 2, 2008

Filed under: Personal Opinion — saifulrizan @ 3:16 am
Note: All images appeared in this post were taken with my Nokia 7270.

After spending a day writing down the personal financial plan for this year, I went to the cyber café across the street. After checking emails, downloading some information I needed, confirming that the gathering for the local forum has been held earlier (it was planned to be held today, fucking 1st January) without my knowledge, I guess it’s time to hit the road. Pissed with some people with uncertainty on their stand of their ground, I let off the pressure by driving. Driving is my best therapy.

Anyway, I spent some times with Daus and Tihah (I’ve mentioned about them before, dig it) at Manikar Beach Resort located at the end of Labuan; Batu Manikar. We spent an hour at the swimming pool, at the rate of RM 16 for four peoples (excluding me).

I never thought the resort had been utterly upgraded, years after it was ‘dead’ from local tourism attraction. The location might be the main reason, for the resort located about 20 minutes drive from town and there is no tourist attraction around the resort.

The last I heard, the resort management is trying to get their shot on 5 star rates, giving another reason for tourism boost in Labuan. Some friends told me the resort has been the main venue for events organized by government bodies, and lately, corporate companies as well. I believe things are going well with the resort, and some better planning on commercial real estate would give another value to their effort on bringing back the fame that they have lost for years.

I didn’t join Daus and Tihah, since they have their mother and aunty accompanying them in the pool. But with what I’ve saw at Manikar Beach Resort, I guess it will be another perfect venue to be on weekend.

Happy New Year everyone!

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Happy New Year to Labuan people. January 1, 2008

Filed under: Personal Opinion — saifulrizan @ 3:11 am
Hi all.

I just got back from Labuan Square, to witness the New Year celebration. But I didn’t spend my time there, even for 30 minutes. I guess there were some matters that bothered me, as a civilian and as someone that always think differently.

It’s something normal for every end of year we have fun in such event. With all the entertainment programs arranged by the related authorities, there are rooms for everyone to enjoy themselves tonight. This is the time we go out and spend times with family and friends, and mingle with the society; though our Malaysian society now consists of the addition from foreign countries, adding value to the culture we preserved for ages.

However, I always have this thought of how cliché the celebration is. Like last year, or any other year, we always provided by singing performance from Malaysian singers. It’s something that will always be expected by all of us. Though the singer invited to Labuan were mostly a seasoned singer, or unpopular, we always enjoy whatever provided by the organizer. Did I say we? Anyway, apart from that, local band and singers were given a chance to perform tonight, or this evening. It’s a fair outcome to balance talent performance in such event.

How I wish those outdated singers or celebrity could be replaced with something similar to Drum Beat Festival that held recently in Kuala Lumpur, or the International Music Festival held at Kota Kinabalu sometimes ago? Though the segments allocated are short, we don’t have to squeeze in participation to perform the same thing. Perhaps that is a bad idea for such event; maybe Labuan Tourism and corporate companies should take some time to plan such artsy performance to feast the crave for new kind of entertainment, to bring in more visitors as it is unique and to give more opportunity to Labuan people to learn there’s more out there than what we’ve been provided for years. I guess I just need an alternative entertainment for me and other Labuan peoples in our calendar.

One more thing.

The way they setup the VIP tent and the sea of flowers in front of the stage are something that is arrogant and meaningless. By taking a quarter of the Labuan Square space just for the sake of the VIPs and flowers, civilians are forced to sit behind them or on the road to watch such performance. It’s unfair, arrogant and stupid. Don’t they think election is coming, and with all the hoo-haa surrounding the credibility of the MP would tarnish the image of whoever it is and effect the trust and stand on election?

Some people just need to use their brain to balance their thoughts on themselves and other peoples.

Anyway, I need to get my formal clothing ready because I need to be prepared for a series of job interview this month. That means I have to dig out the clothes, slack pants, cufflinks, neck tie and the proper belt.
Happy New Year 2008 everyone.

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Looking back 2007 December 26, 2007

Filed under: Personal Opinion — saifulrizan @ 2:19 am
Note : Spend this New Year celebration with your family at home. Have a backyard BBQ, invite friends to come over, and celebrate the night with a nice outdoor lighting to make it remarkable.

It’s always the best thing to look back at what we’ve been through. December is always the best time to look back to value the experience.

January – There’s not much happening around January. Apart from hectic work schedule, I spent weekends at home or out there on the beach, having a BBQ or just feel the sea breeze. Life was pretty much occupied with job, so there’s nothing much interesting to talk about.

I tried to documenting Labuan into a set of pictures, by using my first digital camera, a Point & Shoot camera, BenQ DC C510. It was bought from Plaza Low Yatt during my trip to KL with family. I drive around Labuan, going to historical places, monuments, interesting places, and anything that would give credit to Labuan in general. Till today, I haven’t finish taking pictures and documenting the places I’ve visited (or yet to be visited). However, I’ve created a blog for it, an initial platform before it go to [dot]com. Feel free to visit My Labuan Island. There’s still a problem with the template, because I don’t have Internet at home for now. The project will be continued on January 2008.

February – I guess this was the time I put myself into NXG Solution clan. I remember helping Adam moving to the new office, located above the Restoran Sofia at Jalan Tun Mustapha. With only basics stuff needed to be in the office (most of it are not important, since Adam prefer to do the job at home), it only took two of us doing the job. Hey, Syahrul was there too.

March – I spent a couple of days in Labuan Bird Park, taking pictures of birds there. It’s for the Labuan Bird Park. When the picture editing and other materials completed, it will go to [dot]com. Another community project to promote Labuan tourism and public knowledge about bird in Labuan Bird Park, by me.

April – I joined Labuan Rugby Club, after the Treasurer at that time, Zulkarnain read my post when I attended the UMS-KAL Rugby 7s Tournament held at Labuan Square sometimes around February or March (Can’t remember). This club consists of professionals in different industry in Labuan, and I’m glad to know each of them. I helped Mike, to create a Labuan Rugby Club blog.

May – I got Sony DSC H5 for my birthday (although it’s couple of weeks before the actual birthday). I guess it was the peak of my intuition towards getting a dSLR. Unfortunately, it is a ProSumer camera (half Point & Shoot, half digital SLR), anyway, I go with the flow. Only a poor workman would blame his tools.
The camera first assignment (self decision) was to take photos during the Labuan International Sea Challenge 2007. Labuan Corporation asked if I would like to sell the photos, and I come up with the cheapest price in Malaysia (including giving away the copyright). Unfortunately, they didn’t agree. So, I’ve posted all photos in another blog, LISC 2007. Spend some time to visit the blog, will you?

June – With the new camera, I revisit Labuan Bird Park to retake pictures. Though most of the previous one is still in the vault, waiting to be edited, I insist taking another set. And till today, I still can’t manage to take time to get it done.

In another thing, I joined the rugby club member holding a rugby clinic to school children from different schools in Labuan. I don’t know if I taught them well. What can we expect from playful children?
July – I’m on vacation! Went to Kota Kinabalu and decided to spend a week there. Went to Lok Kawi Wildlife Park, Poring Hotspring Ranau, enjoy the panoramic view all the way from Kota Kinabalu to Ranau, enjoy taking pictures around scenic areas in KK. What a joy!

August – Labuan Rugby Club organized the 6th EC Trust Co Labuan 10s 2007. This tournament attracted clubs from Brunei and Sabah. You can check all the pictures at 6th ECTrustCo Labuan 10s Rugby Tournament 2007

And this month also, I flew to Australia. With plenty of works waiting for me there, there’s not much to expect about holiday. It’s all just work and work. Hell!!!!

September – Went back to Labuan. I decided to quit, though the job is an opening to another opportunity, but I know there’s limitation to what I can do. And no, I can’t do everything I want to. I’m just a human.

October, November & December – Duress and epiphany of s**c**e.

Have a good 2008 everyone.

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Thoughts in transition December 17, 2007

Filed under: Personal Opinion — saifulrizan @ 1:47 am
2008 is around the corner. Another year passing by, and yet we still think there’s nothing much happened over the past 12 months. Do you? I hope not. 12 months is a long period, and it does creates personal development in many ways, depend on what you’ve been through.

If you asked me, I dare to say there are a lot of changes for 2007. Be it from bad to good, good to bad, or bad to worse. I’ve tasted it all, and most of the time it never sweet. Every second I feel great for the positive changes. Too bad, I can’t shave off the negative one, perhaps being haunted by own mistake would make me more cautious in the future.

Enough of what happened in 2007 (with few more days to go). Let’s see what we can do for 2008.

Next year, I’m planning to get a job. I know this might be surprising for some peoples I know. I guess no one would expect I will find a 9 to 5 job, and more, working under other people order. So I will have a boss or superior to report to next year. I won’t expect much from the workplace. A simple one cube will be nice. I would be thankful if they have espresso machines available. I guess that will be a good idea, since I will look for a job that relates to accounting. This time, I won’t go or put so much confidence in placing myself in a top shot position. An account clerk job would be fine.

I just want a normal and simple life. Besides, I got my life insurance license back. So, 2008 will be a year that would generate much income in my life.

Wish me luck.


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